To find true love, face your own truth. This is Esme’s story.

Esme’s nails were bitten to the quick; some were bleeding slightly. That was the first thing I noticed about her. That, and her trembling hands – details most people wouldn’t have noticed, distracted as they might be by the thirty-year-old insurance agent’s Chanel bag, self-assured air and well-polished appearance.

But I’ve given enough readings to know one shouldn’t judge a book by its cover. Man looks at the outward appearance; Spirit looks at the heart. Many people tend to cover up their inner insecurity by over-compensating with external confidence and achievements – not realising that ultimately, they’re only fooling themselves.

I also noted that no Spirit from Esme’s team was coming forward to assist me. The Spirits present were Archangels Michael and Gabriel, to protect and to communicate Spirit’s messages to Esme; Ganesha, to maintain the sacred space while I gave my reading; and myself. Whilst Spirit doesn’t always show up in dramatic ways for all my seekers, when a client’s Spirit team is notably absent, it can sometimes indicate that the client is not ready for the truth. For reasons I would find out soon enough, Esme’s Spirit team had made the decision not to reveal themselves overtly to her.

Man looks at the outward appearance; Spirit looks at the heart.

Esme had requested a reading to ask questions about her career, but it was clear that something else was troubling her. The Tarot cards she was picking throughout the consultation indicated emotional stress, low self-esteem, and deep unhappiness – and while it’s feasible that career issues can lead to such problems, the consistency with which Esme’s cards pointed towards a personal crisis was uncanny.

Finally, after all the career questions were satisfactorily answered, Esme went on to talk about what she thought was really troubling her: her love life.

Apparently, Esme had a forbidden love.

“His family is against his relationship with me. I feel that they’re taking advantage of him. They don’t let him see me. I don’t know what their problem is – I love my boyfriend. I really do.”

I shuffled the deck.
– Alright Esme, pick the cards and we’ll ask Spirit about this situation with your relationship.

But what seemed a simple enough question produced an unexpected answer:
The cards indicated no boyfriend.

“I love my boyfriend. I really do.”

All the cards representing Esme indicated obsession and self-delusion. All the cards representing her so-called boyfriend indicated that he did exist (so he wasn’t a figment of Esme’s imagination), but there was no relationship. Spirit was unusually silent: Michael, Gabriel and Ganesha looked on, but did not comment.

Confused, I tuned in to the energies of Esme’s ‘relationship’. A surge in my intuitive senses instructed me: Ask for his age.

“He’s 89.”

Let’s just say I’m glad my poker face game is strong.

Esme interpreted my shocked silence as support, and continued. “I keep telling him not to let his family bully him into following their wishes. But he won’t listen to me. He hardly sees me anyway. I just want to be with him but his family are getting in the way and messing everything up! Can the Tarot teach me how to help him?”

There’s no point arguing with the deluded. Furthermore, I wasn’t getting much from Spirit. I could only offer some words of counsel, and encourage her to focus on the things in her life that she could control. Finally, the consultation ended and Esme left, comforted.

Over the following months, Esme would text me with vague mentions about troubles in her career or her ‘relationship’, but would stop just short of booking a consultation. I wasn’t surprised: Esme’s real intention was not to connect with Spirit, but with another human being, and she was determined to hold my attention as long as possible. I finally understood why Spirit was so quiet: Esme was firmly entrenched in her own version of reality, and she would not budge.

After I began seeing signs that Esme was developing a romantic interest in me (whilst sending me texts to gain my attention and hopefully, a romantic reciprocation), I decided that enough was enough, and stopped responding to her messages.

It is only human to love and to desire love in return. But when delusion trumps reality, one becomes increasingly frantic in the search for love. Unfortunately, desperation is never a good look on anyone, and instead tends to repel others.

The phrase “Love and Light” has been over-used, and has all but lost its original meaning. “Light” refers to the light of God, the Divine spark within us which illuminates our truth and our path towards our best destiny. To find Love, we need Light. If we snuff out the Light of our own truth, ignoring our wounds and our issues in our frenetic search for the perfect job, partner, whatever it is we’re after – I can practically guarantee you that you will NOT find what you seek, and whatever you cling to, you will eventually lose.

To find Love, we need Light.

It’s a cliché, but it’s true. Finding – and keeping – one’s romantic soulmate begins with the decision to love oneself. And loving oneself is not possible without a willingness to be honest with oneself. Once Esme reaches that point, I am certain that Spirit will be ready and more than happy to assist, guide and heal her. Hopefully, that day will come.

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This Week’s Tarot, 10-16 Oct 2016

This week, Universal energies encourage confidence and self-expression. This being Libra season, though, be careful to strike a balance between flying your flag and blowing your horn – and letting others do the same.

This weekend will be interesting: on Saturday 15 October, the Sun in Libra faces Uranus in Aries directly. Uranus is the planet of unpredictability (if Uranus were a card in a Tarot spread, I’m sure it would be the ‘wild card’); the anti-establishment vibes of Uranus plus a full Moon in Aries on Sunday 16 October indicate the possibility of an exciting time! Let your passion push boundaries, but don’t tip the scales into recklessness. Have fun and play safe, all.

Let’s jump into This Week’s Tarot – here we go! 🙂

LEFT: THE SUN, REVERSED. The Sun is one of the warmest, happiest and most positive cards to get in the Tarot – even when reversed! Success is within reach once you balance your perspectives and emotions towards the task at hand. Upside down, The Sun issues a gentle reminder to guard against excessive pessimism or over-confidence. Your obstacles and challenges can and will be removed – chin up!

MIDDLE: TWO OF CUPS. This card is a happy harbinger of harmony in partnerships. It’s Libra season, after all, and Libra is the zodiac sign of relationships – with family, friends, loved ones, colleagues, even pets and acquaintances! Perhaps this card holds the key to unlock the success you’re promised in The (reversed) Sun. So don’t be a stranger, dear one. Reach out to others if you need assistance, and/or extend a helping hand to someone who needs it. You’ll be glad you did.

RIGHT: TWO OF PENTACLES, REVERSED. The Two of Pentacles reversed can indicate that you’re struggling to manage your priorities and commitments. There’s an element of stress here, but it can be overcome with some tweaks to your time management, budgeting methods, etc. It could be as simple as learning to say ‘no’, for instance, and drawing boundaries as to how far you’re willing to work overtime at the expense of quality time with loved ones.

This Week’s Tarot has two Twos in it, and the message is clear, folks: this week, don’t be a loner. It’s okay to work and play with others, and it’s definitely okay to ask for help whenever you need. I’ll leave you with a beautiful quote about the power of partnerships, from a book I read sometimes:

Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their labour:

If either of them falls down,
one can help the other up.

But pity anyone who falls
and has no one to help them up.

Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?

Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.

Ecclesiastes 4:9-12a

Have a great week ahead! 🙂

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Beauty is an inside job. Here’s how Beth finds it within herself.

Beth was hot. Model-actress hot.

The height, the curves, the hair, the cheekbones. Her legs ran on for miles. Gosh. Seated next to her, I almost felt inadequate. 😉

I wasn’t prepared for Beth’s questions, though. 
(Protip: psychics aren’t all-knowing. Imperfection is how the universe keeps us humble. Sometimes you have to TELL US THINGS.)

“Why can’t I find a life partner? When is he coming? What must I do?”

Beauty can be a curse. Trapped behind her gorgeousness was a lonely soul: tired of being an object of desire, but not love.

I slowly shuffled the Tarot deck.  As a clairvoyant, one of my gifts is the ability to ‘see’ Spirit and pick up on visual cues that escape the physical eye. This time, a vision of chopsticks shimmered before my inner eye, then faded. Hmmm.

A card popped halfway out the deck, and rested on my left hand.
The High Priestess.

“What does that mean?”
A highly intuitive, intelligent woman. Usually a loner. Do you go out much?
“With my girlfriends. I try to, when I’m not at work.”

Chopsticks again. I shuffled, and passed the deck to her.
– Here you go, dear; choose four cards.

And up she popped once more. This time, the High Priestess seemed to be smiling.

Chopsticks. The High Priestess. Her flowing blue robes.
Then, voices. (I’m also clairaudient; I can ‘hear’ Spirit.)
Shrill, whiny, malicious; a tween girl chorus. “Chopsticks, chopsticks, chopsticks, chop-”

Then it all clicked.

– Beth, are you conscious about your appearance?
“… Well.”
– They called you Chopsticks at school. Because you’re tall, slim, and fair. They were envious.
Her eyes widened. “Yes, actually. But it doesn’t bother me now.”
– Then why do you wear dull colours? Clothes that hide your figure? You’re the quiet one amongst your friends as well. Almost as if you’re going out of your way to blend into the background. Are you?

She was stunned into silence.
In a flash, I realised the problem wasn’t only that men wanted her for the wrong reasons. Beth, with her striking looks and sombre attire, was deterring them from coming too close. She was perfect and unapproachable: the High Priestess herself. Such women are often single, and that’s fine, but Beth didn’t want to be single.

Something had to give.

I’m no airy-fairy New Ager. Spiritual counsel is largely unhelpful without practical solutions. So we spent the next five minutes, the psychic and her High Priestess – I mean client – talking girl stuff. Yep.

Beth, beauty is an inside job. It starts from within; it is primarily a matter of self-worth. How good you look depends a lot on how good-looking you think you can be. You’re hot! Believe it! Invest in the right make-up and clothing and for god’s sake, flaunt that figure! Smile more… what do you mean, you have an ugly smile? Confidence: get some! And trust me, the men will come running… once you change how you look and, more importantly, how you look at yourself.

Beth left the consultation, determined to take control of her self-esteem and love life. Over the following days and weeks, the selfies she sent me from various shoe stores and changing rooms proved her will to change.

I noticed this: in the first couple of selfies Beth seemed slightly uncertain and was staring at the floor, but as her journey progressed, she began to look up and admire herself.

In her latest selfie, Beth was in a slick little black dress. Very Audrey Hepburn. Posing confidently, with hand on hip.

And smiling.

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